desiree debonair http://desdebonair.gibberish-utterance.com there's something about desiree... Mon, 30 Aug 2010 18:04:37 +0000 http://wordpress.org/?v=2.9.2 en hourly 1 New Blog Site http://desdebonair.gibberish-utterance.com/?p=180 http://desdebonair.gibberish-utterance.com/?p=180#comments Mon, 30 Aug 2010 17:12:00 +0000 desdebonair http://desdebonair.gibberish-utterance.com/?p=180 People has been asking me why a change in my blog address. What new chapter?? What are the changes in my life?? I’ll say everything in my last post in this blog.
Why a change in blog? Cuz this blog is infested by spam mails. And it’s under my sister’s domain. So she’ve moved to a new blog and i’ll just have to follow. Cuz she did not pay for the extension to maintain this domain. And i think it’s a good thing too. This current blog is all about my travels with emirates.. studies.. love relationship… and it’s almost all so negative. How bad my roster is… how i wish my studies is over… no exams please.. is he the right one… blah blah blah
And i feel that currently.. ive finished my studies (hooray) will be graduating in oct… i’ve moved onto to be a permanent crew with BA (work till 65years old .. OMG!!!)… and the destinations i’m going is always the same.. nothing much to blog about… my two bff left BA… even worst for me to blog about trips… and our new member in the family, she’s getting so adorable day by day… As for my love life… during my last post, i thought that i’ve found the man, my soulmate, and am ready to accept whoever he is and be contented with us. but currently things changed and seems to differ. Anyway… the purpose of my new blog is to be a happy one, or at least majority of the stuffs should be enlighting.. which i really hope to. With my current situation, i doubt i wana start the new blog yet… so stay tune for the address.
What is the new chapter? i thought this will be my new chapter.. a new phase in life. Got a permanent job which use to pay well but soon will be having a major paycut =(. Done with my studies… and i can go into the next phase in my relationship. I’m not too sure about the later one now. Somehow, it came as a shock to me. I didn’t know people can change overnight just like that. But still, i really wana work things out.
Changes in my life??or i should say what i’ve learnt in life?? i thought my bubble world burst once when i’m with emirates. I thought that will be the worst that i see in life or society now. But i was wrong. Very wrong. My bubble world bursted again. I think i’m not living in the current society. I’ve been flying too much… staying in hotel rooms with just nickelodeon, cnn, mtv n nat geo doesn’t really help me. Recently, i read an article on Times, they’re talking about the war in middle east. To me, it’s a war on religion. It’s like a Muslim thingy against the whole world. But i was wrong. It concern and involves even their woman. If US were to move out from middle east, they’re the ones which will suffer the most. Why woman is always the one to suffer? Anyway.. i dunno why am i talking about this… maybe just feel that in this society now, being a woman is always at the losing end.
Will i ever be with that someone who truly faithfully loves me?? I’ve lots of mix thinking and feeling now. Some of them laugh at me saying what’s love, people can love more than one person at a time, some just say you just havent met the one. But i’m glad that i’ve a bunch of really good friends. All of them have different view, opinions but everything just point to one direction. Society is different now. With the technology and stuffs… temptations, adventure, etc… it is very alluring to everyone. To everyone, it’s normal, common but to stone age me.. it’s new. I’m in the midst of changing my attitude in life and how i see things. I’m a very typical woman… i think a lot and have great imagination. I’ve been hurt before. It leaves a scar that can never heal. And as i grow older… the scar got deeper. Recently, i’ve learnt a lot of things just by talking to people and opening up. I can’t believe somethings that my close friends are telling me. It’s truly very scary and even to the extent of an eye opener. It’s only because i’m a boring person and i take things very seriously in life. If not i think i’ll be better off like them.
That’s the changes in my life for now.

*Wake me up when September ends* – the exact feeling i have now!

dreams,
do i have dreams anymore?

]]> http://desdebonair.gibberish-utterance.com/?feed=rss2&p=180 0 Time flies… http://desdebonair.gibberish-utterance.com/?p=178 http://desdebonair.gibberish-utterance.com/?p=178#comments Wed, 07 Jul 2010 17:09:40 +0000 desdebonair http://desdebonair.gibberish-utterance.com/?p=178 A year had gone by… what changes are there in my life?

A lot had happened in this year… what have i learnt in life?

For those who have been reading my grumbles… I’ll move on to a new chapter very soon.
But i can’t bare to delete everything… it’s my growing phase u know…
Hopefully my dear sis will find them a new home.

For now, I’ll remain unspoken…

dreams,
countless

]]> http://desdebonair.gibberish-utterance.com/?feed=rss2&p=178 0 Chauvinist… http://desdebonair.gibberish-utterance.com/?p=176 http://desdebonair.gibberish-utterance.com/?p=176#comments Thu, 11 Jun 2009 17:32:07 +0000 desdebonair http://desdebonair.gibberish-utterance.com/?p=176 I’m lost…clueless… I don’t know what should i do next?

Anyway, question for me to ponder… ‘Is asian man more chauvinistic than westerner?’ Is a chauvinist a bad guy? Hmm… i’m tired…

there’re so many real life example for me to learn from yet i’m still ignoring… sitting on the fence now.

I hate my life!!! Made a wrong choice and haunt me for life!!!

dreams,
help

]]> http://desdebonair.gibberish-utterance.com/?feed=rss2&p=176 0 I’m back from ~ HOLIDAY??? http://desdebonair.gibberish-utterance.com/?p=175 http://desdebonair.gibberish-utterance.com/?p=175#comments Tue, 02 Jun 2009 08:48:03 +0000 desdebonair http://desdebonair.gibberish-utterance.com/?p=175 I’m totally exhausted!! Been sleeping the whole time since Sunday. Finally today i feel some energy is back. I guess this trip is the most tiring trip i ever had in my life. Even backpacking is so much easier. So travelling free & easy with your family is not that easy after all. I feel that this trip is not a holiday for me & my parents at all… I think they’re better rested in Singapore. My poor dad… whenever there’s opportunity to shut the eye.. he’ll doze off. My poor mum… having headache moet of the time. Haiz… and me… my wrist injury worsen…. i went to the therapist yesterday and she advised me to see the doc. =( She say doing the therapy doesn’t help much for now. Which means.. i’ve to spend more money… Please people do take care of your body!! Being sick in Singapore is not a joke. Not only you’ll have to wait and the threatment cost is ridiculous.

Nevertheless, we did accomplished our aim for the Denmark trip. My mum get to see her sister and her lifestyle. We’re all impressed by how the government took care of their people. =) My auntie is definetely better off there. As for London, i came back earlier. As i’m having standby these few days. Thus only spend a day with them there. Just eat & went to the supermarket. They didn’t manage to go Paris. What a shame! Cuz they booked the tour too late. But well, at least they went for the Windsor, Bath & Stonehange tour…. Dunno if they like it or not. But i thought because of the H1N1 thingy, it’s better for them not to stay too many days in London as it’s more crowded.

Well, now i’ve to get back to serious stuffs. Starting on my assignment and studying for my upcoming test. Hmm… my list of things to do… Nope, not done yet. hahaha… and my leave is over! =(

dreams,
another holiday?

]]> http://desdebonair.gibberish-utterance.com/?feed=rss2&p=175 2 Holiday For Me!!! http://desdebonair.gibberish-utterance.com/?p=172 http://desdebonair.gibberish-utterance.com/?p=172#comments Fri, 15 May 2009 17:01:35 +0000 desdebonair http://desdebonair.gibberish-utterance.com/?p=172 Yipee!!! No work for the rest of the month!!! I’ve been waiting for so long for this time to come….. =) finally!!! I feel so tired and drained out. So many things left undone… And this time i’m going to do everything on my list…. from visiting the dentist to chiropratice… to mend my mum’s plants… to sent my car for polishing… to sort out my pay slips …. to write out my school notes… to repair my suitcase… and most importantly go on a holiday with my family…. yeah! We’re going to Denmark and stopping over in London… and they going to Paris whereas i’m coming bak to SIN…. but it’s good enough… =)

This week will be a busy week for me… someone’s birthday is coming and also our anniversary!! hee… i’ve planned a surprise for him. Hope he’ll like it! I’ve spent countless sleepless nights doing it and it still cost a bomb!! I might as well just buy it….Things are getting so ex in SIN!!!! argh!

Just did a calculation on my spending… It’s ridiculous!! Without my current job i don’t think i’m able to find a office job supporting my output. haizz…. I need to save more!!!

dreams,
retired

]]> http://desdebonair.gibberish-utterance.com/?feed=rss2&p=172 0 Exams over….Request trip coming…. http://desdebonair.gibberish-utterance.com/?p=171 http://desdebonair.gibberish-utterance.com/?p=171#comments Fri, 24 Apr 2009 07:38:02 +0000 desdebonair http://desdebonair.gibberish-utterance.com/?p=171 Hooray!! One paper down… two to go… This paper is wonderful… I love my lecturer!! hahaha… There’s only 2 long questions and 25 MCQ. But the main thing is most of the MCQ are from past year paper!! You know how tricky MCQ can be and i always hate it. But this time… It’s unbelieveable! I love it! All i took is 50mins to complete the exam. I’ve broke my record!!! Can’t possibly fail this paper. =)

Tonight i’ll be doing a trip together with Yunju. It’s our request!!! Yipee!! No stress & lots of fun! We’ll be together for 12days!!! I’ve been waiting for this… Going to Pu Tuo Shan again! We’ve made a promise… If our contract is renewed we’ll go there for three years… That’s what you’ve to do if your wish come true. And we made a wish there on our first visit. So this will be our second… and i hope i can do my thrid trip there…. finger crossing… praying very hard…. =)

dreams,
may to come quick

]]> http://desdebonair.gibberish-utterance.com/?feed=rss2&p=171 1 moody me… http://desdebonair.gibberish-utterance.com/?p=166 http://desdebonair.gibberish-utterance.com/?p=166#comments Thu, 16 Apr 2009 15:15:21 +0000 desdebonair http://desdebonair.gibberish-utterance.com/?p=166 Was looking forward to tonight… Spent whole day listening to past lectures and doing my revision. I’m not ’snaking’ around k.. cuz i know tonight i’ve a date! Well… all busted! I even offer to go by myself… was soooOoo nicely rejected. Sounds like it’s for my good. But it’s not the point… Well, i didn’t wana bother to mention but i thought i’ve said i’ll jot down every bits n pieces of my life. Ok.. here it is… moody me now…

hahaha…I just realise something… He finally went in to see my photos. At last, i feel that all i did is worthwhile. Clicking like a crazy girl.. hoping to leave some memories… Rushing to load up the photos, editing it overnight… But it took him 3 weeks to see the end results. Well, at least he saw it now. Just waiting for the ‘never spoken comments’ about it. See if i’ll get any surprise this time…. If not i’ll resist myself from the shutter the next time.

P.S: hope he’s having fun now… celebrating a big bug’s gf surprise birthday party! =p

dreams,
bleah!

]]> http://desdebonair.gibberish-utterance.com/?feed=rss2&p=166 0 My life as usual again… http://desdebonair.gibberish-utterance.com/?p=164 http://desdebonair.gibberish-utterance.com/?p=164#comments Wed, 15 Apr 2009 11:13:52 +0000 desdebonair http://desdebonair.gibberish-utterance.com/?p=164 Just that… I’m happy! And very happy! I hope he is as well… =I

Exams coming… next tuesday… Till now.. i’ve not started my revision.. I can’t get myself into it. Kept finding excuses to do ‘other’ things… I’m doing back up for my laptop (didn’t know it can take such a long time) and.. i’ve iron a basket of clothings… hahaha… i think i like to do house chores… hmm… Hoping i can just stop looking for things to do at home and get on with my books….

Tonight!! I will definitely start tonight!! *promise*

dreams,
exam to be over

]]> http://desdebonair.gibberish-utterance.com/?feed=rss2&p=164 0 As Promise… http://desdebonair.gibberish-utterance.com/?p=161 http://desdebonair.gibberish-utterance.com/?p=161#comments Sat, 11 Apr 2009 19:13:27 +0000 desdebonair http://desdebonair.gibberish-utterance.com/?p=161 This blog is to remind me of my actions.

Never had i look back…
Never had i look at myself…
Never had i look at his feelings..
Never had i stand in his position…
Never had i accept…
Never had i be contented…

Am i being afraid??? Being helpless??? Being inferior??? Being selfish??? Being unreasonable???

Where is my humanity??? my confident??? my trust??? my love???

I’m all responsible for all this. So no matter what I’ll give it a last try…. on my role… And i’ll accept whatever outcome it will have… I really wants this to work out right… God please help!!! =)

dreams,
never again

]]> http://desdebonair.gibberish-utterance.com/?feed=rss2&p=161 0 CNY 2009 http://desdebonair.gibberish-utterance.com/?p=154 http://desdebonair.gibberish-utterance.com/?p=154#comments Tue, 10 Feb 2009 17:09:51 +0000 desdebonair http://desdebonair.gibberish-utterance.com/?p=154 Back to work now…will be away for 12days…then a little holiday with my love ones… hehe… a little getaway to PHUKET!! 3nights with lotsa of fun!!! I’m looking forward to it so much… I’ve missed our previous trip cuz of work.. and this time never will i not go!!! It’s been a long time since our last trip which was the Myanmar backback tour. So i’m sure this will be fun as well. It will be more of a relaxing one… *chilled*
Too bad.. someone couldn’t join us this time around.. but i’m still hoping that someone could make it… it means a lot to me and beside everything has been paid!! Well.. let’s hope & pray…

This CNY passes very quickly.. and nothing much thou.. It felt very different now. As we grow older… hmm… nevertheless… this year we’ve a new member… hee… she’s very pretty in dresses… =)

little princess

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