I’m lost…clueless… I don’t know what should i do next?
Anyway, question for me to ponder… ‘Is asian man more chauvinistic than westerner?’ Is a chauvinist a bad guy? Hmm… i’m tired…
there’re so many real life example for me to learn from yet i’m still ignoring… sitting on the fence now.
I hate my life!!! Made a wrong choice and haunt me for life!!!
dreams,
help
I’m totally exhausted!! Been sleeping the whole time since Sunday. Finally today i feel some energy is back. I guess this trip is the most tiring trip i ever had in my life. Even backpacking is so much easier. So travelling free & easy with your family is not that easy after all. I feel that this trip is not a holiday for me & my parents at all… I think they’re better rested in Singapore. My poor dad… whenever there’s opportunity to shut the eye.. he’ll doze off. My poor mum… having headache moet of the time. Haiz… and me… my wrist injury worsen…. i went to the therapist yesterday and she advised me to see the doc. =( She say doing the therapy doesn’t help much for now. Which means.. i’ve to spend more money… Please people do take care of your body!! Being sick in Singapore is not a joke. Not only you’ll have to wait and the threatment cost is ridiculous.
Nevertheless, we did accomplished our aim for the Denmark trip. My mum get to see her sister and her lifestyle. We’re all impressed by how the government took care of their people. =) My auntie is definetely better off there. As for London, i came back earlier. As i’m having standby these few days. Thus only spend a day with them there. Just eat & went to the supermarket. They didn’t manage to go Paris. What a shame! Cuz they booked the tour too late. But well, at least they went for the Windsor, Bath & Stonehange tour…. Dunno if they like it or not. But i thought because of the H1N1 thingy, it’s better for them not to stay too many days in London as it’s more crowded.
Well, now i’ve to get back to serious stuffs. Starting on my assignment and studying for my upcoming test. Hmm… my list of things to do… Nope, not done yet. hahaha… and my leave is over! =(
dreams,
another holiday?
Yipee!!! No work for the rest of the month!!! I’ve been waiting for so long for this time to come….. =) finally!!! I feel so tired and drained out. So many things left undone… And this time i’m going to do everything on my list…. from visiting the dentist to chiropratice… to mend my mum’s plants… to sent my car for polishing… to sort out my pay slips …. to write out my school notes… to repair my suitcase… and most importantly go on a holiday with my family…. yeah! We’re going to Denmark and stopping over in London… and they going to Paris whereas i’m coming bak to SIN…. but it’s good enough… =)
This week will be a busy week for me… someone’s birthday is coming and also our anniversary!! hee… i’ve planned a surprise for him. Hope he’ll like it! I’ve spent countless sleepless nights doing it and it still cost a bomb!! I might as well just buy it….Things are getting so ex in SIN!!!! argh!
Just did a calculation on my spending… It’s ridiculous!! Without my current job i don’t think i’m able to find a office job supporting my output. haizz…. I need to save more!!!
dreams,
retired
Hooray!! One paper down… two to go… This paper is wonderful… I love my lecturer!! hahaha… There’s only 2 long questions and 25 MCQ. But the main thing is most of the MCQ are from past year paper!! You know how tricky MCQ can be and i always hate it. But this time… It’s unbelieveable! I love it! All i took is 50mins to complete the exam. I’ve broke my record!!! Can’t possibly fail this paper. =)
Tonight i’ll be doing a trip together with Yunju. It’s our request!!! Yipee!! No stress & lots of fun! We’ll be together for 12days!!! I’ve been waiting for this… Going to Pu Tuo Shan again! We’ve made a promise… If our contract is renewed we’ll go there for three years… That’s what you’ve to do if your wish come true. And we made a wish there on our first visit. So this will be our second… and i hope i can do my thrid trip there…. finger crossing… praying very hard…. =)
dreams,
may to come quick
Was looking forward to tonight… Spent whole day listening to past lectures and doing my revision. I’m not ’snaking’ around k.. cuz i know tonight i’ve a date! Well… all busted! I even offer to go by myself… was soooOoo nicely rejected. Sounds like it’s for my good. But it’s not the point… Well, i didn’t wana bother to mention but i thought i’ve said i’ll jot down every bits n pieces of my life. Ok.. here it is… moody me now…
hahaha…I just realise something… He finally went in to see my photos. At last, i feel that all i did is worthwhile. Clicking like a crazy girl.. hoping to leave some memories… Rushing to load up the photos, editing it overnight… But it took him 3 weeks to see the end results. Well, at least he saw it now. Just waiting for the ‘never spoken comments’ about it. See if i’ll get any surprise this time…. If not i’ll resist myself from the shutter the next time.
P.S: hope he’s having fun now… celebrating a big bug’s gf surprise birthday party! =p
dreams,
bleah!
Just that… I’m happy! And very happy! I hope he is as well… =I
Exams coming… next tuesday… Till now.. i’ve not started my revision.. I can’t get myself into it. Kept finding excuses to do ‘other’ things… I’m doing back up for my laptop (didn’t know it can take such a long time) and.. i’ve iron a basket of clothings… hahaha… i think i like to do house chores… hmm… Hoping i can just stop looking for things to do at home and get on with my books….
Tonight!! I will definitely start tonight!! *promise*
dreams,
exam to be over
This blog is to remind me of my actions.
Never had i look back…
Never had i look at myself…
Never had i look at his feelings..
Never had i stand in his position…
Never had i accept…
Never had i be contented…
Am i being afraid??? Being helpless??? Being inferior??? Being selfish??? Being unreasonable???
Where is my humanity??? my confident??? my trust??? my love???
I’m all responsible for all this. So no matter what I’ll give it a last try…. on my role… And i’ll accept whatever outcome it will have… I really wants this to work out right… God please help!!! =)
dreams,
never again
Back to work now…will be away for 12days…then a little holiday with my love ones… hehe… a little getaway to PHUKET!! 3nights with lotsa of fun!!! I’m looking forward to it so much… I’ve missed our previous trip cuz of work.. and this time never will i not go!!! It’s been a long time since our last trip which was the Myanmar backback tour. So i’m sure this will be fun as well. It will be more of a relaxing one… *chilled*
Too bad.. someone couldn’t join us this time around.. but i’m still hoping that someone could make it… it means a lot to me and beside everything has been paid!! Well.. let’s hope & pray…
This CNY passes very quickly.. and nothing much thou.. It felt very different now. As we grow older… hmm… nevertheless… this year we’ve a new member… hee… she’s very pretty in dresses… =)
For the past few days has been a pain… Not sure what I’m doing?!? And not wanting to do anything… Why things will turn out this way?!? Am I someone who u can vent your anger on? Who u can shout at? Who u can blame at?
You are stressed. Isn’t everyone as well? It’s just the matter on the level of it and how you handle it!! Find other way to distress beside me. Where is your warcraft now!!
Call yourself a man!!! Blame it on a BROOM!!! Crazy.. It’s ridiculous!!! Isn’t that superstition as well! Tell me ur not superstitious!! *bleah* Sweeping a broom across your leg brings bad luck…Believing in a BROOM then will brings horrid luck. If you wana believe in a broom than I will think looking into fengshui would be a better option still. Isn’t it?? There’s still logic and evidence all around. Hmph! Nevertheless, I will never give in to this! Shout at me now what will be next?!
There’s a saying a leopard will never change its spots… and I finally believe that. Some might say that i’m unreasonable or heartless… but everyone is to protect for themselves, isn’t it? Especially when one is hurt before… our defence system will auto turn on isn’t it? I may not be perfect either but at least I don’t blame it on my loved ones or a BROOM!!!!
This blog is all created for this broom.. And now I’m going to thank this broom. Thank you so much for bringing the truth to my life which allows me to see someone’s spots.
A new year , a new life….. cheers 2009!!