desiree debonair

I don’t know what’s wrong.. First thing in the morning (well, it’s noon for some), was bitten by a starving mosquitoe/s. Not one not two bites but tens of it till i lost count and started scratching again. Well, got out my mozzie net hopefully will have a peaceful night apart from the itchiness. After that, went online to check my next month’s roster and was so disappointed. Birthday in london!! Not only that.. minimum rest again (No extra days off nor standby). And to make things worst.. 3 of my flights out of 5 will be flying with a senior. Well, not any senior but the senior whom i’m most afraid of. She specialised in Mandarin PA (public announcements) and as most of you know.. my mandarin sucks! And she super duper fast.. Before i can do anything she’s done it! How am i able to score well?!?!? or to her standard. Haizz… Well, not mentioning i had to bare the drilling, hammering, renovation works from the apartment below me for the whole day!!! It’s been more than two weeks! Are they hacking the whole place down?!
**I just have to scream it out of me!! the itch is killing me!!**

dreams,
remedies for the itch

Some things just happen for a reason… Maybe it’s a hint for you to stop and re-think what’s your life is all about. I feel that i’ve been missing out a lot. I’d been focusing too much on myself and neglecting those around me. I’m feeling guilty and hate myself so much.
I’ve been looking through my previous post and noticed that most of them is regarding my studies. What a surprise! This blog is actually created mainly for my trips and experiences that i’ve gain not about how many assignments i have or exams.
Anyway, i really hope to do something. I don’t wana waste anymore time. There’s so much that i need to do, so many promises that i’ve made…

wish,
to be desiree again

i think my studies have been draining me down.
not feeling too good at all….
my whole body is falling apart… been popping supplements more often now.
having late night.. dreamy nights…
and i mean real dreaming.. that i will still remember what i’ve dreamt when i wake up.
i even cry in my dreams and waking up with my face wet.
i even dreamt about doing my assignments and very weird dreams..
too much dreaming these days…

shall change to wish instead from now on…

wish
peaceful night tonight

i’m hit with the flu bug & sore throat again! Feeling awful…cramps cramps cramps!!! Yesterday had been the worst day. Yet, i’m alone. That someone wasn’t even bother about me… Is a phonecall that hard? How i wish it could be better sometimes…
But anyway, i’m tight up with my assignments. so I don’t really bother. Well, i just have to depend on myself right?
Talking about assignments, I’m doing a personal energy audit. Which means I’ve to monitor my water and electricity consumption everyday. Like how much water i use for bathing or how much electricity i use while typing this blog. Hee… it’s interesting but lots of information to gather. Anyway, I stumbled into this site from PUB. It’s fun and teach u how to save water! There’s a goldfish u can feed and remember to change the water or else it’s game over like mine. hahaha…
10 litre challenge
I’ve upload my cny2008 pics. hee… My sister and i wore yellow for this year. We look like a banana sisters!! =)

Chinese New Year 2008

dreams,
to be better

felt so foolish this time…. good things don’t last forever.. and i’ve missed this chance.

dreams,
never felt this way

Hoping for a better and happier year!!!
Everything is going well so far except for my studies… I’m clueless at what the lecture is going on. Felt so lost in class. Anyway, nothing i can do much except to hold on.. and pray hard. Hopefully miracles do happen!
2007 was indeed a memorable one for me and very eventful. Lots of changes in my life. Left emirates, left Dubai, got in BA, my sis got married and moved out, continue my studies, in a relationship, people came into my life and there’s people leaving too…,got my first car, and my contract with BA is re-newed for another year!!
I think i’m someone who is living in the past. I missed 2007. Especially the first half. How is 2008 going to be for me?

At least, i’ve completed my annual SEP (Safety Emergency Procedure) refresher test before cny. And i don’t have to worry for a year. Hee.. it’s really a blessing in disguise. However, i’ve a check flight end of jan!! And it is to Shanghai!! 10days!!! Haizz…. I’ve to be in my tip top form.

dreams,
a peaceful year